Chapter 9 - Sophia’s Clothes
Sophia wore the same gray sweatshirt the following Wednesday.
Rachel noticed.
“You’re doing that on purpose.”
“What?”
“The sweatshirt.”
“It’s clean.”
“You own others.”
Sophia looked down.
“I like this one.”
Rachel smiled.
“Fine.”
At school, two girls complimented it too enthusiastically.
Sophia knew why.
They had seen the video.
“Thanks.”
She kept walking.
The attention irritated her almost as much as the mockery.
Before Jason, nobody had cared where she bought it.
After Jason, even kindness felt like commentary.
In art class, Sophia’s friend Leah Grant asked:
“Want to go shopping Saturday?”
Sophia frowned.
“With what?”
“I have birthday money.”
“So?”
“You can just come.”
Sophia immediately heard accusation where none existed.
“I don’t need new clothes.”
Leah stared.
“I didn’t say you did.”
“I know.”
“No, you clearly don’t.”
Sophia looked away.
Leah softened.
“This is what he did, isn’t it?”
“What?”
“Made every conversation about clothes feel like a test.”
Sophia’s eyes filled unexpectedly.
“I hate it.”
Leah sat beside her.
“Then wear a trash bag tomorrow.”
Sophia laughed.
“Bold.”
“High fashion.”
After class, Sophia visited the thrift store where she and Rachel usually shopped.
She walked aisle by aisle.
Sweaters.
Jeans.
Jackets.
Nothing had changed.
A woman compared two winter coats.
A college student tried on boots.
A father bought a child’s soccer cleats.
Nobody stood beneath a sign announcing their income.
Sophia found a dark green jacket for twelve dollars.
She liked it.
Then nearly put it back because Jason might call it proof.
That realization made her angry.
She bought it.
At home Rachel inspected it.
“Good stitching.”
“You say that about everything.”
“Because modern manufacturing has betrayed us.”
Sophia smiled.
Then said, “I almost didn’t buy it.”
Rachel understood.
“Because of him?”
“Yes.”
Rachel handed it back.
“Then he almost got twelve dollars’ worth of control from home.”
Sophia laughed.
The next morning she wore the jacket.
On Route 47, Jason was absent because his bus privileges remained suspended.
The back rows felt strange without him.
Students sat wherever they wanted.
Ben chose row nine.
Sophia noticed.
“You switched back?”
He nodded.
“My mom said I could.”
“Are you okay?”
“Not really.”
“Good.”
He laughed.
Sophia took the seat across the aisle.
Ms. Harris looked at them through the mirror.
“Morning.”
“Morning.”
Nobody claimed first class.
The bus moved.
For ten quiet minutes, it was simply transportation.
Then Priya leaned over the seat.
“I’m doing the listening session.”
Sophia nodded.
“I know.”
“You don’t have to.”
“I know.”
Priya hesitated.
“But there’s something they’re asking.”
“What?”
“What would have made us report sooner?”
Sophia considered.
“Knowing it would matter.”
Ben nodded.
Priya wrote it down.
Sophia continued.
“And not having to become a whole case.”
“What do you mean?”
“If someone takes your headphones, you should be able to report the headphones without becoming ‘girl traumatized by bus bullying.’”
Priya smiled.
“That’s good.”
“Don’t quote me.”
“Too late.”
Sophia groaned.
At school, Principal Hayes asked for a private meeting.
He looked more uncomfortable than usual.
“I owe you information.”
Sophia sat.
“Okay.”
“The district reviewed my handling of Ben’s complaint.”
“And?”
“I followed existing policy.”
She stared.
“That sounds like you think you did nothing wrong.”
“No.”
Hayes folded his hands.
“I treated the absence of video as uncertainty about the seriousness of the incident.”
“That sounds reasonable.”
“It did to me.”
“But?”
“But I let Ben’s route transfer become evidence that the conflict had ended.”
Sophia waited.
“It ended for Ben,” Hayes said.
“Not for Jason.”
“No.”
Sophia appreciated the plainness.
“What happens to you?”
“The superintendent is reviewing administrative procedures. I will likely receive a formal corrective action for failing to coordinate transportation notes with student discipline.”
“You could lose your job?”
“Unlikely.”
Sophia frowned.
“Do you think that’s fair?”
Hayes smiled sadly.
“Apparently everyone asks victims to answer that question.”
Sophia blinked.
“You noticed.”
“Yes.”
He leaned back.
“My responsibility is to own what I should have done differently.”
“What?”
“Called Ms. Harris.”
“Personally?”
“Yes. Asked whether there were other concerns. Reviewed transportation notes. Not allowed a student changing buses to substitute for understanding why.”
Sophia nodded.
Hayes looked toward her green jacket.
“That’s nice.”
She narrowed her eyes.
“Don’t.”
He realized.
“Oh.”
Then laughed softly.
“Sorry.”
Sophia laughed too.
For the first time, a comment about her clothing passed without becoming a judgment.
That felt smaller than justice.
May you like
And almost as necessary.
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